in search of life

Ummm…I can’t believe I haven’t posted a blog in over a month.  What?  First of all, April where have you gone?  And second, why can’t I get my lazy butt to think of anything to say?  It’s not like things haven’t been happening.  I went on a trip to Tennessee, we had cheer tryouts, I went to a coaches conference, I even made homemade bread on Friday (exciting, I know).  But apparently I’m either too tired from life to actually write about it or its just that even with things happening they are too boring to report.  I don’t even know what to say from here.  Can I just tell you that it really bothers me that my life feels mundane all the time?  And that it’s so overloaded even while be so boring?  Sorry Sorry Sorry.  I feel like this has been my complaint for the last 5 years, so I apologize to those of you who have heard me whine about it all that time.  And I think the advice most people would give me is to just DO something already.  But here is the problem – I don’t know what to do.  And in the not knowing, I just have a lot of fear of doing something wrong (wrong as in I will hate that outcome too), and so I somehow convince myself that just staying in this normal routine will be better than trying something different and failing.  Wow, this blog post has gone all therapeutic now.  Again, my apologies.  Ok, so here’s my plan for now:  I will blog at least 3 more times this week so that hopefully I can see that my whole life isn’t boring and that there are good things happening in it all the time.  Some of the posts will be about this last month, but hopefully some will just be about stuff this week.  All right, at least I’ve got a plan.  Albeit, a small one, but a plan nonetheless.

really really random

I stayed home from work yesterday due to a really weird and horrible headache.  I’ve still got it today but was able to make it into work.  I don’t feel very sick otherwise except for a bit of a dry cough.  I have a feeling it could be a tension headache acting up.  I had one last summer for a week straight and took every type of medicine to figure out what it was, but in the end saw the nurser practitioner and she figured out that it was due to the way I hold my head at work (on the computer and answering the phone) and while I’m driving.  Anyway, whatever it is due to, I’m ready for it to be gone.

Overall today has been a bit on the different side.  Don’t worry…nothing crazy or exciting!  Just really random things.  Like I found a hole in my jeans in a place you’d rather not have one.  Luckily it isn’t noticeable except to me, but I’m ready to get home and change the pants before I flash my undies to some stranger.

And the girl at Port of Subs (my all time favorite place for lunch) asked if I had died my hair (which I did a couple of weeks ago) and she told me it was “really really pretty”.  Which was very nice of her and kind of made my afternoon.

And after quite a few weeks of really good or at least decent weather it is suddenly doing this slushy/sleety/snow thing that is annoying.  After the winter we’ve had this year I am SO ready for spring.  And normally I get annoyed with the summer when it is too hot (having grown up in AK), but I promise that I will not complain once about it being too hot this coming summer.  And if I do I give you full permission to pinch me.  Because seriously this cold stuff is for the birds.

And as a follow up to my last post – I did one of the exercises Marta had posted on Monday.  And I’ve decided that for my Lent “resolution” I’m going to fill up the notebook I started using all the way.  Before Easter.  Yikes, I’d better get going.

accomplishments

Today was one of those days where it basically took everything I had just to do laundry.  Granted I had about 5 loads to do, but still sort of ridiculous that here I am at the end of my day and that’s what comes to mind when I look back on what happened.  I guess there was some other stuff – an online clinic for cheer that I’ve been putting off for months, registering the cheer squad for state (yep, we found out we had a high enough score to be included!), paying bills, organizing a big pile of paperwork, and researching about possibly traveling to Italy and Greece this summer.  Oh and watching several episodes of CSI and a good 2 hours of HGTV (but I was totally folding clothes while I watched!).

Luckily tomorrow has a few things on the agenda that will force me from the house.  Hopefully I’ll also have enough energy to finish some of the other goals I had for the 3 day weekend.  I have my doubts as of now, but who knows?  Maybe I’ll surprise myself.

Also, my apologies that the subject of laundry and the like is all I can muster up for blog topics these days.  Hopefully something new and exciting will come up soon to share with all 4 of you who read this blog on a regular basis.