the countdown begins

Cheer practice starts this coming Thursday.  As in 3 whole days away.  Basically 75 hours from now.  I have mixed emotions.  First, I am sad that my summer is coming to an end.  It has been a good one.  Unusually hot, but still good.  On the other hand, I am excited to see the girls and get geared up and work hard and have them live up to their potential.  I am excited about the propects of what this squad is capable of and how far they can go.  But, I’m also worried that they aren’t going to push themselves much and will rebell against me pushing them.  We shall see.  I’m gearing up for a big pep talk first thing on Thursday.

Besides getting ready for practices to begin, I’m trying to jam an incredible amount of stuff into the next couple of days with a somewhat weird schedule.  Sounds pretty much the same as my life usually is from this time through mid March.  I never understand how other people can get so much stuff done!  I figure they must not sleep.  But I shouldn’t complain.  This weekend I was talking to some friends about facebook (which seems to have become overrun with people these days) and told them that my pet peeve is when people will write a status like “I have so much to do today!  I don’t know how I’ll ever get it all done.”  And the response in my head is always, “Well, get off the damn facebook and maybe you’ll have a chance!”  Of course I never actually say that in a comment.  Because that would be impolite and confrontational.  And then I’d get uncomfortable.

Anyway, I’m just reporting my schedule to you.  I’m not complaining.  So no one needs to confront me about the fact that I’m blogging right now instead of actually getting my crap together and getting something accomplished.

can this week have 8 days?

So right now I feel like I’m trying to squish 2 or 3 weeks of stuff into this one week.  Actually less than one week because I was sick on Sunday and Monday and did nothing but sleep or lie on the couch.  I know everyone feels like this especially around the holidays and my bit of complaining here is like white noise.  But seriously as I’m looking at the week almost every bit of time is taken by something.  Work or cheerleading or errands or chores.  And I do have some fun things coming up this weekend, but I want to do some things to prepare for them (some baking, making little gifts, etc.) and I honestly cannot seem to find a place in my schedule to get it done.  Like not even an hour.   And actually I don’t even have time for all the work, cheerleading, errands, and chores I HAVE to do.  So my room remains a complete disaster (but, hey what’s new?), my car continues to be a little too much like a trash can, and my dumb task list continues to to just have things added on rather than crossed off.  And pretty soon I’m going to need some more clean underwear. 

And really I know that there are some things I could be cutting out to get the rest of this stuff done – things like writing this blog or watching an episode of Friends or finishing book 4 of the Twilight series (yep, did that this morning from about 5:05 – 6:10am), or checking my facebook more than once a day – but I think I would feel like a complete robot without a little bit of those kinds of things in my day.  And really the time spent on those things doesn’t add up to much and is usually done while I’m eating dinner or doing some little project (my roommate might tell you differently).

And yes, I’m really busy this week, but in actuality most of my weeks are pretty similar.  I’m always completely excited when I have 2 nights during the week with no obligations because that is a very rare occurence.  As I get to be a little later in my 20’s I’m resenting and worrying about this even more.  I don’t want to look back at my 20’s and just see how well I did at fulfilling obligations, I’d like to see that I lived some good life stuff in there too.  Right now my life doesn’t feel like it belongs to me.  That’s not something I want to have continue.