update on writing

So you know how I wanted to write more for my Lent resolution?  Ya, not so much.  I have one of those old composition notebooks that I wanted to fill up and I think I’ve only got 1 page front and back written.  Ridiculous.  At least there’s still a little over 3 weeks until Easter, but at the rate I’m going I’ll have maybe another half page written by then.

The good news is that this weekend marks a week of lesser responsibilities and commitments for me.  I of course still have some stuff on my plate, but my parents will be heading back home after a 2 week visit here, my roommate is on her spring break visiting family, and cheer is much more minimal (you know, just a meeting with the other coach, a parent meeting, and a banquet – no big deal).  For the most part it will be me at work or me at home with the cats.  Oh ya, I’ve become a total cat lady.  Kinda sad, but I love them anyway.  So maybe I can force some quality writing time in the midst of getting the kitten to stay off the table and the old man cat to come out from under the bed.  Exciting, I know.

really really random

I stayed home from work yesterday due to a really weird and horrible headache.  I’ve still got it today but was able to make it into work.  I don’t feel very sick otherwise except for a bit of a dry cough.  I have a feeling it could be a tension headache acting up.  I had one last summer for a week straight and took every type of medicine to figure out what it was, but in the end saw the nurser practitioner and she figured out that it was due to the way I hold my head at work (on the computer and answering the phone) and while I’m driving.  Anyway, whatever it is due to, I’m ready for it to be gone.

Overall today has been a bit on the different side.  Don’t worry…nothing crazy or exciting!  Just really random things.  Like I found a hole in my jeans in a place you’d rather not have one.  Luckily it isn’t noticeable except to me, but I’m ready to get home and change the pants before I flash my undies to some stranger.

And the girl at Port of Subs (my all time favorite place for lunch) asked if I had died my hair (which I did a couple of weeks ago) and she told me it was “really really pretty”.  Which was very nice of her and kind of made my afternoon.

And after quite a few weeks of really good or at least decent weather it is suddenly doing this slushy/sleety/snow thing that is annoying.  After the winter we’ve had this year I am SO ready for spring.  And normally I get annoyed with the summer when it is too hot (having grown up in AK), but I promise that I will not complain once about it being too hot this coming summer.  And if I do I give you full permission to pinch me.  Because seriously this cold stuff is for the birds.

And as a follow up to my last post – I did one of the exercises Marta had posted on Monday.  And I’ve decided that for my Lent “resolution” I’m going to fill up the notebook I started using all the way.  Before Easter.  Yikes, I’d better get going.

trying to write

I am very excited to get home from work and practice tonight so that I can get started on something that Marta is starting over on her blog.  I’m looking forward to having some accountability (however small it actually is) and just some inspiration to get writing.  In college I was an English Lit major, which I definitely enjoyed, but about half way through completing my requirements I took the one creative writing class that was required for the lit majors.  And I loved it.  I was so unsure and wary of the whole thing at first, but while in that class little seeds burst into sprouts and made me see that maybe, just maybe I could write.  I even considered changing my focus to creative writing, but realized that it would take me about another year to complete my degree and so just stayed with lit to save myself the money and the agony of attending college for a 5th year.

Since then, I’ve hardly done any creative writing and I think that is because of at least two things:  1.)  My schedule.  I am typically so overloaded with my daily to do’s that I’m too tired to even consider trying to do something like write for an hour.  2.)  My self confidence.  In that one class that lasted just 10 weeks there was some hope inside of me that was beginning to grow.  But the fact that I didn’t continue on with it has made my confidence in the fact that I could possibly write something interesting diminish greatly.

And here are some reasons I want to join in with Marta and get started again:

1.)  Maybe some of that confidence will come back.  2.)  Maybe I will begin to see something else I can do with my life.  3.)  Maybe I can coax those little sprouts into something bigger and more beautiful.  4.)  Maybe I can become a famous author.  (Ok, if I’m honest this one is always in the back of my mind and I know it should not be the thing that pushes me, but at this point I’m allowing it in just in the hopes that it might spur me into actually committing to practice this writing thing again.)

So we’ll see how it goes.  Hopefully well.  At the very least it will get me trying it again.